Wow it's almost been 2 years since I've officially started gyaru.
I was cleaning my laptop the other day and came across this photobooth picture! Haha oh my gosh. This was taken last summer and it really made me think about my "journey" in the past few years lol.
I don't want to go into details but a lot had happened in these few years. I was a mess before, mentally and physically. I felt like I was constantly drowning.
Fast forward now, I feel that I've grown a lot, learned more about myself, have more confidence in who I am and can slowly cope with what life throws at me (somehow). Although it would be a lie to say I'm no longer struggling, because I still mess up, I still struggle to love myself and I still breakdown to my anxieties/insecurities. But I just don't feel so disorientated at the purpose of life anymore.
But that's not why I'm
rambling writing this post. One major issue I had before was my attitude towards myself, I am was a bitter person to myself. So I must admit, I am grateful to have found the gyaru style because it (and along with other things/experiences/changes) really helped my confidence, self-esteem and myself as a person. But it wasn't just the appearance or aesthetic of the style; It was like discovering a passion. It makes me happy the more I pursue it. And as superficial as it may sound, I want to look better and keep improving because it's fun and surprisingly, I enjoy the challenge of it.
Anyway, in the picture I've been doing gyaru for roughly a year? Something like that. I think it was one of my better attempts in that year. Oh and I must say, straight eyebrows and side fringe makes me look so different haha.
Um okay, I don't really know where this post is heading so I'm gonna leave it there.